Im losing my mind....

[superbird]

Im preety sure my days are numered. im in florida right now with my familiy and im bord...... but at least im some what safe.

when i go back to lousiana im probally not going to be alive and or in jail.

i have so much crazy shit spining in my head that im really losing it. Im on fucking morphene and its not fucking help either. it dulls the pain but its always there. my wife is gone, probally out with one of her ex's. her dad says "im going to fucking kill you"


when i go back ill probally go to a mental hospital. im going to have to go when i start to come out of the morephene. im going to have horranle widthdaws.

i dont really know. i dont expect to be living past the 26th of dec. there will be no more videos no more fun. im really going to be gone. i know you all think this is a joke but its not. im so tired of all this im so tired of the pain in my heart the pain in my arm the pain in my head.

im doing the shirts and clothing for my memorie please dont forget me. i really dont expect to be around for much longer. i want something of me to go on. if i die ill give the car to rl_bat he can part it out.

im just in so much pain right now. it will never go away. no one will ever be there for me when im in pain i noticed. no one even says bless you to me if i snezze.

with my dying breath i curse alpha

ps some one take care of stormy when im gone

ps my car is vicky

[Watts-Up]

I'll buy the car right now. With the $ from that you can go on a huge pain numbing binge and live a while longer.

But seriously, I hope things change for the better for you soon. Pain killers are no joke, especially morphine, that's gonna be a cloud over your head that will always haunt you. Go and try to have some fun to take your mind off shit.

[superbird]

its just going to get worse

[Watts-Up]

Ehhh, you don't know that for sure, it might, but then maybe it can't. Medicine is advancing pretty fast nowadays, they'll come up with some new shit that will make life better for people that suffer. keep your head up man, things will eventually take a turn for the better.

[BlkCSS]

i guess i'm wayyyyy outta the loop here but what happened to you that caused you to start useing morphine any way?....thats some serious shit rite there.


I hope you can find some joy in things bird man....nobody needs to be talking like you are now.

just because your hurt doesn't mean your family, wife,ect dont still love you....

think on the lighter side of things, we all get loaded down at times but you have to work hard to pull through.

good luck with every thing.

[superbird]

no dude. it doesnt. i feel so fucking old. i been living with this arm pain since sept 05.

i went crazy on april 13th 06 when the doctor cut my nerve. iv lost it. no one understands no one.

[superbird]

i dont want to work it though. i worked it though b4 my arm was fine and i lost that again. i want my wife back but i cant get shit back. im just fucking waiting to die.

[superbird]

i just dont care any more i just really dont.

[superbird]

i cant eat, i cant sleep, i cant do alot of things i weighted 185 now im 150

[BlkCSS]

Originally Posted by superbird

no dude. it doesnt. i feel so fucking old. i been living with this arm pain since sept 05.

i went crazy on april 13th 06 when the doctor cut my nerve. iv lost it. no one understands no one.

okkkkk soooooooooo what the shizzle happend to get you hurt?????


as for the doc and a nerv in your arm...this may sound greaty and such but that could mean a shit load of cash if he did in fact mess up...

i know that say it ain't true but so far in my life i can say some extra money always makes things better