Why Im So Messed Up! Please Read!

[zvillepimp1982]

First off Ill admit that im a lieing ******* thats the truth. Sometimes I cant help it though. I have a bad psychological condition known as Aspergers Syndrome. Aspergers syndrome is a form of autism, yet it is classified as high functioning Autism in that the people that it affect always have well above average IQs. However waht this syndrome does do is create sever problems with social situations for the person that has, such as saying inaapropriate things in conversations, making up stories, or simply just wanting to avoid social situations all together.
Now Im not on here asking any of you to feel sorry for me, but at certain points in my life it has been hell because of this syndrome Ive even attempted suicide at one point because things got so bad. I was always the social outkast in school and other social groups because it is difficult for kids at a young age to relate to somone with this syndrome. To this day I still really dont have any friends, I have trouble keeping a job because I still have problems reading peoples emotions and dealing with social interaction. Truth be told I really hate myself and I hate my life. Ive seen people I went to HS with graduate college get jobs get married etc.. the thought of which makes me want to kill myself Im mean Im 23 years old and Ive accomplished absolutely nothing in my life and I doubt that I ever will. The only thing I have the keeps me sane is my Girlfriend sarah she is great because unlike other people she took the time to look through the problems i have and find the real me. I want to marry this girl buit im fearful that i will not be able to provide us I just dont know what to do.
In conclusion I appologize to everyone on here. I didnt mean anything I wrote on here earlier. Ive learned my lesson. Luckily, my father was able to explain my psychological problems to the dealer and the problem was resolved. Once agan Im sorry to all!

[ender]

Dude its cool, we know you, Autism is actually a very cool disorder, I am a Psychobiology of Addiction major but we had to get into all of that other stuff. Most of the time, if It can be tested Autisc kids have MUCH higher IQs than the average person. However in social or Highly stimulized enviroments they get to much stimulation and they cann't cope with it, thus your defensive mechs kick in and you tell some stories, thats not that bad, new a kid that screamed when he had to much stimulation, they had to cover his eyes and plug his ears to get him to quit.
To be honest when you told me at the track your dad had a viper, I thought you were shiting me, and then a few weeks later, bam there it is in your garage. Just know you dont need stories to hang with us thats all I am saying.

[Tibbett]

Oh shit..I entirely missed this post Ryan. Same as what Ender said man..and you know you can call me anytime you need something.

[zvillepimp1982]

Thanks guys for your support these past couple weeks have been kinda rough for me thanks a lot and god bless!
Ryan

[SilverRedLine04]

hang in there dude, believe it or not,everyone has some sort of tick or learning dissability and it just hasnt been classified yet

and i feel that after 1000 years they will still be classifying things and still not know them all, why? because everyones different.

you're gonna be just fine, redline power!

keith-

[dacoolist]

We have never met in real life bro, BUT one thing is, when my gf and I met up with Tibbett last week, and when Ender joined up; I heard nothing but Awsome things about you. We cant wait to meet up with you SOON! About your post: You are YOU becuase nobody else is, act however you want and even though we Don't even know ya' We are behind Ya's. So until we meet up, just lean back and don't lose that Cool. l8r's All - Call me for a meet whenever! -

[Sp00ner]

Yeah, no worries... I kill kittens when I'm bored... we all have issues...

[zvillepimp1982]

Well things are looking like they may be turning around for me. My girls dad has started jis chemo and radiation therapy and he seems to be responding to the treatment very well which is good. I also interviewed with a local ford dealership about a sles job and they are very interested. I f I got this job it would be awesome I would get to do something I love and be making good money. Its Pearson Ford if any of you know it it would be great for me because it is a quaint small town dealership that would be a better fit for me unlike the large mega dealers I worked at in the past!