This isn't my first dance btw, I have 5 years of moderating experience from a few other forums. At times and most of the time it can be easy, but then sometimes things happen which require tough and unpopular decisions.
No offense... but maybe you need a break.
The second you became a mod, things 'changed'... and you said it yourself.
Funny how things change.... when your name is in bold red letters.
yeah, they change.
There should be no change... a mod is a member.... and if they can't stick with the community, they will lose the trust and respect.